REFLECTION.
I have been thinking alot lately.......dangerous I know. But, I feel so blessed and happy it is overwhelming. My life has done a 180 in the last year. Good health really is everything. I am so grateful for my mental health. When I was going through depression, I felt there was never going to be anything else. I forgot how it was to be Lisa and feel good and happy. And because I went through that...I am more grateful than ever for everyday with my sweet boys and my kind husband. I recognize that at any moment it could change. I just hope that I have been sufficiently humbled and am sufficiently grateful for what I have now. I will never again judge any one for any kind of depression or mental health problems. It is so real and I hope that any one could come to me if they had a problem. Because I understand how it feels.
Also, I think I need to live in CA. I hate summer! I think I was partly depressed because it is so bloody hot!!!! I hate being trapped in the house. I want to be outside and so do my boys! I love fall! I love this weather!!!! Heavenly!!!!!!!
I also have been thinking alot about motherhood.......the in's and out's....the daliy routine of it all. And there is something refining and heavenly about giving yourself 24/7 to others. I have recently read the book " These is my words" and recomend it. It made me see my role as a women and wife and mother more clearly. It is hard and it is long, but the rewards are not of this world and if we see it as a job that is truly fulfilling everyday when the house is quiet and our kids are asleep and we think back on the busy, fun day......I think it helps me to truly enjoy and marvel what it is to be a mother in zion (as my roomate used to say). Let us stand firm and immoveable in our resolve to serve, love nurture, give and provide reliefe. Love to all.