Isaac

Isaac: 1 yr?

First:

He is doing so well in school. He loves it!

And he is pretty darn smart. Especially in math!

Second:

He is hilarious!

Tonight John was trying to get Easton to say family prayer (which he refuses to do: he will only say his personal prayers).

I'll admit the convincing process was taking a while.

Isaac finally said very seriously to John, "Dad, I think it's time to move on."

We both started laughing. And I said, "Good call Isaac!"

Third:

He is playing soccer. And he is awesome!

Tonight was his first game and he scored 3 goals!

Fourth:

He is an awesome big brother.

Tonight at soccer Easton was playing around with a few little boys his age and they were getting a little too rough.

One of the boys threw Easton down and was sitting on him.

Easton kept asking him to get off.

Isaac walked by and realized it and grabbed the kid and threw him off while shouting, " Hey you leave my brother alone! He said get off!"

Proud mommy moment.

I love this boy! He keeps life exciting!

Little boys are always running.

Easton at about 5 months.

This morning Easton and I went to pick up his little friend Benjamin to come play.

"You stay in the car mom. I'll go get him." Easton told me.

He then ran to the front door.

His friend opened the door and waved to his mom who must have been nursing his little sister on the couch.

He shut the door and they ran back to the car.

As soon as the car stopped they were running, no racing to our front door.

Then they were running to the play room.

They run the whole time we are at at a park.

They run from place to place in the house. Never just walk.

They run to get the mail and to and from school.

They seek out every curb or planter box, or ledge on the way into a store and jump off!

Oh to have so much energy and excitement for life!

It makes me excited to have another little exuberant boy in our home!

Just Thoughts

I have so much going through my mind.

Gratitude for this little one growing inside. And the other sweet men in my life.

Love for my sweet John and all he puts up with and does for me.

Worry about the kind of mother I am. And my lack of patience in this pregnancy.

Longing to feel myself again..... spiritually, phyisically, emotionally.

Struggle with being completely tired of feeling sick and tired.

Depressed about the fact that I can't exercise and have to eat constantly. (Hence an enormous weight gain.)

Constant battle within about how important I feel it is to eat healthy. And how hard it is to actually accomplish it. It is more time consuming, more expensive, takes more thought, and sometimes I just can't eat it because I still feel nauseous and eat what ever I can.

Sadness that my 16 week mark in pregnancy didn't bring on a surge of energy and good health.

(Which is what I experienced with both my other pregnancies.)

Anxiety for this coming semester and John having to study for his second part of Boards.

We also have to start the process of short-selling our house soon.

Excitement, because BY THE WAY, John got excepted into a Periodontic Residency in Lexington Kentucky and we will be moving there in 9 months. I really am excited! It feels so right and good. We will just be doing it all with a new baby....

Sorrow for my own weakness and my lack of service to others because I just feel so dang tired.

Did I mention the tired factor? I have never been so tired in my life. I have to force myself to do anything.

Guilt for all my negative thoughts and feelings. I KNOW it could be so much worse. I KNOW I am so blessed. I KNOW that I need to be holding on to every moment and loving every minute.

And yet, I know I can learn from it all. I can do hard things! ( I heard that in a conference talk.)

Nothing is permenant and in this case it will all be so worth it!

I need to stay positive and grateful and learn what I am supposed to.

I want to.

I will.

North Ogden Utah

Last week during John's break we spent 5 days with John's family.

It was so beautiful there! The weather was so perfect.

It was truly a respite from this barren, hot dessert.

The boys played outside all day!

I am really bad at taking pictures of every one and everything.

We had so much fun with cousins and John's siblings and parents!

Isaac found a snail.

Grandpa and Grandma's awesome back yard!