Update

I had a few days this week when I literally could keep nothing down.

So, they checked me into the hospital on Tuesday again and kept me there until they could find a combination of medicine to help me keep food and water down.

I am currently taking 3 different medications and a sleeping pill.

This is hard for me, because I really don't like feeling drugged.....

But, of course I am grateful that I can survive and keep nourishment.

My mom has been here since Wednesday, but is leaving Monday morning and I am trying not to panic. It has been amazing to have here here. She has been so wonderful!

I have days where I feel just as sick and horrible and then a day where I feel ok.

I am grateful for the ok days.

I am trying to know it won't last forever!

I got to see the baby and the heart beat in the hospital. That helped a little bit.

Although for the most part I just can't believe I am actually pregnant.

Brutally Honest Post

So, I thought I was sick a week ago.....

That is a joke.

As of Friday I was diagnosed with Hyperemesis Gravidarum.

Which basically means the baby is like a foreign object to the body

and so it freaks out and you throw up all the time.

The last 4 days have really tested my strength and endurance.

I have been to the hospital twice (once over night) to get hydrated

and find an anti-nausea medication that works for me.

I have tried 3 already and two give me migraines and the other did nothing.

So this last time we found one that keeps me from throwing up.

I spent literally from 4 a.m. to 8 p.m. on Thursday throwing up anything and everything.

Wow, let me just say. I thought I was dying. It was unbearable.

Yesterday I came home to a liquid diet and a pregnant woman appetite

and felt like I was starving to death. But hey, I wasn't throwing up.

Today I am on solids and can actually sit up and move to write this.

I am so grateful we found this medication although it makes me fall asleep.

I still feel nauseous all the time, but I can eat.

So, here's to sleeping through my first 16 weeks of pregnancy.

My ward and friends have been unbelievable!

I am crying now thinking of the love and kindness.

And whether it's ok to solicit prayers over the web or not..... I am.

Thank you for all your prayers already.

In those moments when I want to die I try to muster up the prayers I know people are giving.

And most of all I must say I have married an angel! I true angel on earth.

His compassion and kind, loving care are indescribable!

He does everything without complaining and I know it is waring on him!

Thanks again for all your goodness and prayers!